Joyful Transformation

Today I am in a funk. Can’t put my finger on what is causing it. I don’t think it is post-holiday depression, I just never get all that fired up about the holidays. I think I am just feeling a little lonely maybe a little old. The years do seem to tick off at a faster and faster pace.

I think I am somewhat overwhelmed by what all I need to do. I am neither a stupid person nor a lazy person, but I just can’t seem to get it all together. My tax records are piled up in envelopes waiting for me to sort them from the junk mail in my cabinet. I can’t ever seem to catch up at work even though the volume of work is nothing like it was this time last year. My closets are over filled at home and I just never seem to get around to getting groceries or preparing a whole meal at home. This all frustrates me. I know that I must simplify, at least I think I know it, I sure don’t act like it.

I know that the very nature of all my blessing should so overwhelm me that I couldn’t possibly feel down about anything, and yet I do. I know that God will forgive me and love me anyway, but I just don’t feel joyful. I can think of many things that bring me great joy but my attitude is not joyful.

Funks come and go maybe this one will go soon.