Joyful Transformation

Earlier this month I wrote about a friend who I no longer had contact with. Well yesterday a chance encounter at lunch hit me a little hard. This chance encounter caused emotions and feelings that I thought were long behind me to resurface. My confidence and my assurance of God’s love for me starts eroding. I revert to the person that I was with this friend. I know that part of this is that a large portion of my life was shared with this person. We were friends that could finish each others sentences and laugh at the same little things. I am sure part of my anxiety is missing that closeness in my life. I was amazed that I let it get under my skin and ruin my mood for the day.

But then again my mood was also marred by conversation with my daughter. Do daughters and mothers ever get on an even plane? Diana works for me so I see her everyday. That is great and it can also be grating! If I ever offer a view point different than hers she accuses me of taking sides against her. I know it is just that mother/daughter thing. I know she loves me and knows that I love her but somedays it just gets to me.

So there! I let others rob my joy yesterday. Shame on me! Today I will do better. I will meet with my class tonight and even celebrate a birthday with some of the girls before class. It is going to be a great day!